Dreams and Nightmares

I slept most of today because I'm getting sick. When i'm awake I just cough and now I have a funny nose. What the hell is happening to my body? When did I develop such a weak immune system?

During one of my sleeping sessions I had a dream about The Canadian. I was in line for another cruise when I saw him out of the corner of my eye. I decided to ignore him and pray that he wouldn't spot me, but he did and started to move in my direction. Immediately, I turned and walked quickly the other way. He didn't pursue, but our mutual friend Cruise G did.

Cruise G: Why are you ignoring the Canadian? He looked really hurt.
Me thinking: He's hurt? He's hurt?!
Me: I don't see why I have to talk to him. We're strangers now. He got what he wanted - to fuck me. It's better if we're not in each others' lives.

Cruise G didn't understand, but I didn't feel like talking anymore. In my dream I left the port; took off and left all my luggage behind.

If he knows what's best for him, he'd forget all about me and find that person who will fit his agenda perfectly - on the same timeline, in the same location, wanting the same thing - a successful relationship.

And I know what's best for me is to remove people from my life who treat me with such little regard.